life outside of work

17.01.2025

A: What is your life outside of work?

S: Wouldn’t you like to know. You are what you do. Should I tell you my identity?

A: Precisely. This is why I ask.

S: What do you want to know? When?

A: Today.

S: After work, I called up the one I am with on the phone. That was the first thing. I talked about my day and asked them about theirs.

A: You called them first of all? And then?

S: I moseyed my way down to High Street Kensington for the Japan House exhibition. Where I wandered in the exhibition about a hundred Japanese craftsmen. Watching a video about the creation of ceramics and woodwork, reading displays about the philosophy of Japanese craftsmanship, pondering over the unique qualities of the artwork on display, messaging my friends and the one I am with with photographs of what I was seeing.

A: An interesting excursion. Anything for afters?

S: I browsed in the Marks and Spencer’s foodhall, which is one of my favourite regular shops, if not my absolute favourite. I love the food there. Then, I had a free dinner in MacDonald’s, a fillet-o-fish or whatever it is called with some fries. On the commute home, I finished reading ‘The Golden Road’ by William Dalrymple, about Ancient India and how it has shaped contemporary knowledge. When I had done with that, I listened to Hindi film music on my smartphone.

A: When you got home?

S: I ate some fancy Lindt chocolate. Then messaged the one who is mine, doodled on my tablet with a stylus and wrote to my penpal in New Zealand after watching some videos.

A: So. Phone calls, viewing art, reading, photographing, shopping, eating, studying, listening to music, watching videos, writing, writing, writing.

S: I got up to 23, 000 steps today too. Despite that, I got up from my seat on the Tube so that an old lady could sit down. A good deed outside of work to help others. Even though I’ve been on my feet and rushed off my feet all day.

A: And now?

S: It is about 23.28. It is time to try and get to sleep. Have you found out who I am yet?

the 1.7%

S: You want to know who The Tiger is? Sikhs are only 1.7% of the population in India. Despite that, we make up 8-13% of the Indian army. We feed millions every day for free in our temples. We contribute about 67% of India’s charitable funds. We are a culture of heroes. We have been raised to be heroes and we are heroes.

A: What is the secret to creating the hero? How do you build The Tiger?

S: There is a challenge. One the one hand, The Tiger must have no ego. He is taught humility. To follow direction and listen to his elders. But this does not create a Tiger. Because there is a contradiction. The Tiger must be the most egotistical when it comes to his Mother and his community. He must be raised in an honour culture. As the proudest. One that has to walk with his head held high for his Mother’s honour.

A: This world calls you toxic.

S: This selfish and materialist world of cowards? You listen to them? They are born in lies and raised in lies. They do not even know what a man is. Their manhood is in eternal crisis. Look at The Tiger. He is proud to be a man and he is a man. There is no uncertainty. He has been named after the king of the jungle.

A: They hate your boasting.

S: So what? They have no love in their hearts. That is the difference. The Tiger has love in his heart. That is why The Tiger is power. The Tiger does not fear like these chickenshits. That’s why The Tiger rules and no one can rule above him. Like Frankenstein’s monster we are fearless and therefore powerful.

a gust of cold water

16.01.2026

S: I was standing, reading. Always reading. From nowhere on this icy day, a gust of cold water swooped down upon my legs and feet. Entombing me in the freeze.

A: You need to cool down.

S: You cannot quench the fire. But the fire is cold.

A: You burn to no effect.

S: One spark will burn this world of sin.

A: And what is new in this quest?

S: One that I have taught and rescued with my knowledge, that one has been awarded an unconditional place at university.

A: You take the achievement as your own?

S: This one is the child of The Tiger. He follows the path that The Tiger has shown him. Service for the community. The protection of the planet.

A: You have recruited one into your army.

S: Like Satan, The Tiger stalks the world looking for his soldiers. Warriors to mould.

A: Satan owns the things of the world. What do you have?

S: Wherever The Tiger sets his feet, wherever the Punjabi is at, that territory is his. That is the reward of valour.

A: One that boasts.

S: Deservedly. Because there is only one real man in this world. It is me.

work

15.01.2026

A: What do you think about work?

S: It’s a waste of time.

A: You’re saying that? You work all the time. Seven days of the week including overtime on mornings and evenings. You have won awards in every workplace. You are conscientious. You do free overtime. You volunteer at about five places.

S: An absolute waste of time.

A: Why?

S: You’ve listed all my qualities. Do I need to mention my experience and qualifications? Despite all that, I haven’t ever been given a fitting career. I don’t care what anyone says, this society is full of hate and prejudice.

A: You always say that.

S: Because it is true. In fact, they use my experience against me. Any excuse not to give you anything.

A: They think it is sour grapes.

S: They are the ones that discriminate. So they deserve criticism.

A: Why work then?

S: It’s certainly not worth it. Who knows why?

the difference between a warrior and a slave

S: What is the difference between a warrior and a slave?

A: You are the one that loves to boast that you are one and not the other. You tell me.

S: The warrior would rather be dead than to be a coward, to be disloyal. The coward loves his mean and cheap, dishonourable and shameless life too much to ever be brave or loyal.

A: Example?

S: Look at Trump. He thinks he is a warrior. He is a non-man. He preys on the weak. He attacks the vulnerable. He is a bully. And just like in the playground, his people forget their duty as Americans and citizens and will not stand up to him and remove him from this post that he does not deserve. It is a culture of cowardice, a society of cowards. Not just him. His cronies. Farage.

A: What do you do about it?

S: Five minutes alone in a room. Nobody to interfere…

A: Enough of that. What else is the difference?

S: The warrior is the truth and tells the truth. The coward? The non-man? Bred on lies. A liar. They can’t find truth. They couldn’t find a dick in a condom.

A: And?

S: The warrior is the hero of love. He is full of love and its strength. The coward and slave? Full of hate and its impotence.

A: And you?

S: I am strength. I am love. I am the truth. I am the fight. I am the Revolution. I am the one that answers the prayer of The Mother, the People. I am The Tiger. Destiny has blessed me with the war.

Radha

14.01.2026

S: I am named after the god of love, Krishna. Suneel means the colour of his skin, very blue.

A: You always say this.

S: Have you ever wondered who the god of love is with?

A: Radha. What about her?

S: She is the wife of someone else. Yet her true love is Krishna.

A: Who is she then?

S: She is worshipped as the goddess of love.

A: Krishna’s lover is the Indian Aphrodite?

S: To be with Aphrodite is a curse. But to be with Radha is paradise. She is confidence, devotion, beauty.

A: How can she be devotion if she is with another that is not Krishna?

S: The love with Krishna is a heavenly love. The love with the other is the earthly love. What is more exalted? Heaven or earth? The ideal or practicality?

A: You are fated to be with the goddess of love? These are names. They are not identities.

S: I am the god of love. I bring love into this world of hate. I bring the philosophy of India into the world that is six thousand years old, the philosophy of love that this wicked world could not extinguish. It is my fate to be with the goddess of love.

A: You tell me you are a warrior. How then can you be the god of love?

S: My war is love. Love is my war. The warrior is the lover. Krishna himself was a warrior. He preaches the warrior duty in the Bhagavada-Gita. He is the philosopher of the warrior. The culture that I come from is the warrior culture.

A: And Radha?

S: She is too a warrior. She is the other form of the Mother Goddess, the Warrior Queen. The stories that make us what they are, they are entirely consistent. There is no confusion.

A: It is very fine to call yourself the god of love when you are bagging yourself the goddess of love.

S: Isn’t it? Krishna enchants the world. Radha enchants Krishna.

disconnection

14.01.2026

S: You are disconnected from a job. You no longer care if you come in on time. You no longer do extra. You have no interest in what happens. You don’t trust the management. You don’t expect anything out of your job.

A: Sounds bad.

S: You are disconnected from people around you. You don’t talk to them. You don’t take interest in them. Where is it going to go? Nowhere. What do you get out of them? Nothing.

A: You are not an island.

S: What else am I?

A: Despair does not give a good life.

S: Somehow, despite severe demotivation, you have to go on. You have to perform despite no reward and no recognition. Have you been able to do that? Could you keep on writing, singing, dancing, drawing for these philistines and ignoramuses?

A: Burnout?

S: The assessment of reality. They all feed from the talent of a genius. But the genius is sick of them.

A: Think of the one you have that recognises your talent. You said that all you need is one.

S: Yes, they are they and I am I. We are us. There is one connection in a world that fosters disconnection, hate, distrust and prejudice.

A: Snap yourself out of this world.

S: What else do I do? I am the Revolutionary. We are not of this world. We are of a better world, a much better world. A world of freedom, justice and merit.

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the bravery the pride the manhood of tiger

13.01.2026

S: In the film ‘Jaat’, Sunny Deol, my favourite actor, a fellow Punjabi, he says that ‘I am one who knows the value of life, yet still I put my life into danger’. That is the philosophy of the hero.

A: You have quoted this line before.

S: Yesterday, like so many times, I put it into practice. The one that wants to be a hero does not fly from danger. He runs into it.

A: What happened?

S: There was an argument on the train when I boarded it. About six young men involved. As usual, the non-men on the train were not intervening. I was on the phone to the one that is mine. I stopped the phone call and walked over to break it up. I did break it up. One group walked off. One of the young men expended his ire on me.

A: Did you have to do this?

S: I have been raised to be a hero. I come from a Sikh background. We have been raised to be brave and to serve the community. They look to us for help.

A: Now you will boast?

S: I did the work. I was the only man on the train.

A: You are so proud of being a man. It will get you into trouble.

S: It is the coward and the non-man that is scared. Not The Tiger. I am proud to be a man. I am proud to be Punjabi. I am proud to be brave. I am proud to be The Tiger. It is not just my name. It is who I am. I have never been scared of anyone.

A: They call you toxic.

S: The coward has many names. But no heart and no conscience. It is the man that does the work. It is the man that protects the community.

A: Life is not about proving your bravery.

S: Who says? That is exactly what it is. The one that is the strongest, it is his duty to look after the weak. No matter how contemptible many of them are.

relationships

12.01.2025

S: What is your view of relationships?

A: Is there a view? What’s yours?

S: Just because you don’t speak, doesn’t mean you don’t think about things.

A: How do you know people do?

S: I won’t dignify that with a response. You want to know my view?

A: Not particularly.

S: Well, since you’re twisting my arm, here it is. The relationship is absurd.

A: Why do you say that?

S: If you genuinely care about someone and go after them, ask them out, they will not have you. If you show no interest, they are all over you.

A: Evidence?

S: I was at this place where I had to have minimal interaction with people on arrival. I gave the minimum. Then, instead of joining the thing, there was one that would not leave me alone. The more aloof I was, the more they were trying to talk to me.

A: Just that as proof?

S: That is after three years of trying to find someone in London. I was handsome then. I’m handsome now. It is the same man.

A: You had some things in that time.

S: Nothing that coalesced into a relationship.

A: Well you have someone now. Forget about the atrocious past. Strategy in the future? Play hard to get from now on?

S: I’m only myself. I don’t play any games. I don’t use a strategy. I have self respect. If they can’t value me, they’re not worth it anyway.