11.11.2026
Just now, I had a nightmare. It was a dream where I was slipping in and out of the dreamworld, loosely captured by it but easing out of it at the same time. It is often the case in my relationship with dreams. To some extent, they do not work on me.
The first scene of persecution began in the university. The first persecution was as I walked through an entrance which took me through a big hall. There was some kind of party on. I went through the space and tried to turn to go out of the exit but a woman blocked me on purpose. She thought that I was trying to join the line for food before her. I kept on walking past the line for food and went out of the exit that was next to it, telling her that this was what I was doing and that I wasn’t even after the food.
The second scene of persecution began when I was again trying to walk out of another exit door. Again, my journey was obstructed. A security guard was stopping a group of young men just in front of me because he thought he had identified one as a shoplifter and I had become one of the group too. He was checking his phone for a photograph so that he could confirm the suspicion.
The last scene of persecution was the most anxiety inducing moment. I was with my best friend and he had a date. I was telling them about my persecutions that I have mentioned above. I had a premonition that my friend and his date were going to kiss, a visual image of it. However, what actually happened was that the unknown woman started telling me off. I couldn’t hear everything as it suddenly became noisy, but the next thing I heard clearly was her telling me not to look at her.
It was at this moment, when I was thinking that I had done nothing wrong, that this was unjust persecution, that I woke up.
Biographical notes:
– I have been feeling unfairly judged by someone recently
– When I was a kid, I was, without any foundation, targeted by security guards and policemen at shops for supposed crimes that I hadn’t done, sometimes when I was with a group like my two brothers
– My best friend has a date coming up recently from a dating app and I made a comment to him about how it was when I was looking for a girlfriend everywhere including dating apps and nothing happened and the reason why I thought this was the case, one of the differences between my and my best friend (not to be said because even though I am right about this, you are cancelled from saying the truth about this)
