16.11.2025
S: When I got into the station, a young hooligan pushed the gates to get free entry. Then, when I came home from London, again at the same station, I watched someone push through those same gates to get out. The workers there did nothing to stop it both times.
A: I feel like this is not over yet.
S: When the bus was pulling out of the station, it had to stop. Some idiot had parked his car in the bus lane so that we couldn’t squeeze past.
A: Why focus on these things?
S: I’m trying to tell you about the people that I live with in my area. What I have to live with.
A: Forget about that. Talk about something different.
S: Why do people hold hands?
A: To connect?
S: But how did it originate? Why grab someone’s hands?
A: It is the primary way that we touch, through our fingers and hands.
S: That might be one explanation. How about this for a theory? If you hold hands, you can never lose anyone. You are attached to them.
A: What makes you think that?
S: Over the past three years, with the brutal treatment that I received from those that I loved, when you suddenly snap apart and there is nothing any more, when before you thought you would have them forever… You need to hold hands to stop that happening. You need to be attached to someone.
A: Isn’t attachment just connection?
S: Attachment conveys more of an idea of sticking together.
A: How about this for an objection? When you hold hands, you don’t just hold hands. You also caress the hand and the fingers.
S: And how about this for a reply? When you caress, you are looking at more places to attach yourself to, to connect to, to love.
A: Well, I hope for you, you find many places to love.
S: What is this journey in life but finding those many places to love? And then loving in those places?
diary of a lone man 