being boundlessly busy

16.03.2026

A: What is it like being busy all of the time?

S: It’s been going on all of my life. It’s what I’m used to.

A: But how is it going?

S: There is never any time for anything. Yet everything somehow gets done.

A: It is all a massive investment of time, labour and love. Isn’t it all really draining?

S: Isn’t everything?

A: What makes it work work? What is the nitty and gritty of it?

S: My mother handles everything at home. I organise everything ruthlessly. I don’t dilly and dally, I just do things. I rush everything. I am super quick as a person. I do everything straight away when I get time, on my breaks and lunch breaks, walking to and fro from places, on the commute. Besides that, I have a remarkable memory, touch type really fast and, as I often say many times, I am a genius.

A: Why do you boast so much?

S: In a honour culture, boasting is tolerated. Because it is an honour culture.

A: These that read, none of them are not Punjabi. They hold it against you.

S: False modesty is hypocritical. I am objectively a genius based on my work. The magnus opus is still unpublished but it is in first draft form. In any case, this culture would dishonour me and treat me as nothing. This is not true. I am special. I am the kind of thinker that comes every few hundred years. It is just an objective fact. Even people around me recognise that I can just go into any field and know it all. I am the last generalist in a culture of specialists. My mind is more plastic than everyone else’s. That is another reason why I can cope with being busy at this level. So, to answer your question, the more they try to put me down, the more I congratulate myself for being myself. The more that they attack my identity and devalue it, the more value that I put into it.

A: Narcissistic defence.

S: The appreciation of real value. They can’t appreciate or reward real value. They are exploitative, prejudiced and, compared to me, they are all lazy and incapable. I am the best. Objective fact. And the other thing? They have never let me do anything. They have refused me all of the jobs that I wanted to do. So despite that, I am still doing all of these jobs on a voluntary basis or for free. It is spite that keeps me going, anger that keeps all of these plates spinning, the famous stubbornness of the Punjabi. It is the community that gives me strength and courage, skill and energy. The Mother Goddess Saraswati, Goddess of Learning, she has blessed her son in a world of ignorance, selfishness and hate. This genius that comes from the lower castes, who the whole world is against, despite them he has still achieved. That is why I am god. God accepts no limitation. I am the dream of India. The dream of The Mother. The Tiger.

tiredness

15.03.2026

S: I am tired.

A: You surprise me. You are always full of energy.

S: It is 23.41. I have been up since 6 am like I am most days, most good days when I can get up. In this day, I have been at work for eight hours. In the lunch times and breaks, I shopped at a charity bookshop and I went to have a chocolate cake at a cafe. After work, I hosted a charity event, a fundraising event. I encouraged, enthused and gave out prizes. Then I went to a pub with five of my friends. I’ve fitted in two phone calls with my girlfriend too. In the morning, I did light weights, push ups and stomach crunches and meditated. I also wrote and I arranged an interview with a gurdwara (Sikh Temple) for my journalism project to help the Dalits, the lower castes in Punjab.

A: If you keep on packing in stuff like that, you are going to get tired.

S: This life is too short. There is too much to do. There is the whole world to change for the better. They have asked me to be a hero. They expect. I have asked myself to be a hero. I expect. The work of a hero. For no reward.

A: Why work yourself to the limit for them? They would not do the same for you.

S: A hero works for others, not for himself. The king works for the kingdom. Not for himself.

A: You that see yourself as a hero and a king, they do not. They see you as a villain.

S: Whatever they see me as, when I look into the mirror I see someone that cares. That wants to change the world around him. That has not accepted defeat. Someone that will do his level best to perform for the people and The Mother that see him as their prayer. Someone that can build communities around himself.

A: And this feeling, this feeling of tiredness. Is it not saying to rest, to relax? To recharge?

S: What this feeling is saying is satisfaction. The satisfaction of tiredness. To make the world a better place. Having taken on a big challenge in fundraising and having achieved it with good results, much better than estimated or expected. The satisfaction of knowing that I can do whatever I set my sights on. I enjoy this tiredness. Honest work creates honest sleep. I have deserved this rest tonight.

the cheapness of the rich

15.03.2026

S: The rich are mean and cheap.

A: What makes you say this?

S: Every time that they have had a choice between the machine and the man, to exploit labour fully, they have chosen the machine. They do not want to feed families. They want labour at a minimal or zero cost. They are cheap and mean. Why did the windmills come in? Because they are cheap and mean. Why did the computers come in? Because they are cheap and mean. Why is AI coming in and taking over all professions? Because they are cheap and mean.

A: And?

S: They have no empathy with others. They do not want to share their resources with others. They want to keep all the money for themselves and keep themselves at the top of this fawning and sycophantic society of slaves that fawn over them. They do not care about the planet. They care about AI. They do not care about the families. They care about themselves. They would rather have everyone out of work and for AI to be taking all of the jobs.

A: If you hate them so much, why don’t you do something about it?

S: I have told you so many times before. You can not touch them. You can do nothing about it. Because this is a society of slaves. They would let anyone walk all over them. They have no backbone, no discipline and no idea of how to organise and do anything. Try to persuade them. They will do nothing. Unless you preach hate against those that they perceive as less than them.

A: Become a luddite. Destroy the machines.

S: That is what this age calls for. And yet, these cowards and non-men sit there, doing nothing. The world burns with climate change. What do they really do about it? They can do nothing. That is why they are non-men. The leaders that they choose have nothing in them. They can do nothing against the rich because they worship them. They want to be them.

the value of volunteering

14.03.2026

A: You volunteer a lot, don’t you?

S: Yes.

A: What exactly is it that you do?

S: Curation, Journalism, Research writing, Protecting the planet and nature, Inspiring the protection of the planet, Advocating to the government for the poor, Activism, Working with Human Resource Issues, Being a Newsletter Editor, Professional Photography, Fundraising, Events Organisation, Tour guiding, Explaining art, Teaching, Presenting…

A: Many hats. Many skills.

S: Everything that is needed and asked for, everything that is wanted. Yet, it impresses no one. Yet it brings in nothing for me personally.

A: Why do it then?

S: I’ve always wanted to be a good person. I’ve always wanted to build the community.

A: Don’t you think that you have done enough?

S: There is always more to do.

A: They would suck at the blood in your veins. They would keep you working and working.

S: People need help. I can help them.

A: What is the value of this volunteering?

S: Personal satisfaction. The right to look in the mirror. The use of the privilege that has been given to me through the lottery of life. The knowledge that I am a man. That I have used my gifts to benefit and improve this world. That I have touched countless lives and influenced for the better. The knowledge that I have not squandered my gifts.

A: In all this, there is no reward. They do not even care about your volunteering in interviews.

S: That is the worst thing about being a man and having honour, for serving the community. You get nothing out of it. That is the regret.

A: Why not keep the time for yourself?

S: There is a big difference between a man and a non-man. A man has a social conscience and integrity. He will work for the community. He has a big heart. A non-man has nothing and is nothing. You can’t ask me to become like these non-men. Because I am a man and I have a heart.

doing a hamlet

12.03.2026

S: You are surrounded by racists. That smile at you while they plot on keeping you down.

A: It is too true.

S: Nothing can be too true. To exist and survive with these racists, you must do a Hamlet.

A: How so?

S: Hamlet was done out of a throne and mother by the villain. He was oppressed. So, he had to act in a different way to everyone else. He had to become an original rather than a sheep.

A: Oppression forces individuality and personality, a change. An interesting thesis.

S: And it was perceived as madness.

A: Difference when it is radical cannot be understood.

S: The Oppressed stand counter to the strategy of cowardice, deception and usurpation. And because of this, they are perceived as mad. This is the reward of the genius of the Oppressed. This is the creativity of difference. The other path. The path that is counter. The path that contests the usurped throne.

A: You walk the path of fire.

S: It is the blessing of The Revolution, The Tiger and The Mother. Not all are blessed with this bounty.

A: Hamlet never wins.

S: But he achieves his revenge. That is enough. Justice, more precious than life. Honour more charming than the world.

the new sound

11.03.2026

S: I have had my cheap wireless headphones for about eight years. I got them on my PhD when there was no money coming in so I didn’t get very good ones. All the plastic fell off. The cushioning fell off. But I didn’t get new ones because it is bad for the planet to buy products. And finally, after all that time, I got some new ones because they have been playing up.

A: What do you make of them?

S: They were half price so I just guessed that the expensive price would be a marker of their quality. And I was not wrong. They are the most powerful headphones that I have ever listened to. I have to keep the volume at about half on my smartphone to be able to bear the sound. The bass is ludicrous. It is like being in a club. They are amazing.

A: I’m glad that you’re pleased about your purchase.

S: Do you know what? The sound of Punjab is exactly like these new headphones.

A: In what way?

S: Punjabi music is known for its energetic and vibrant quality. It is known for its power. And these headphones are power.

A: What are they?

S: Skullcandy Evo Crusher headphones. Even the name – it means that the vibrations crush your senses. They are amazing. I will only ever buy these headphones from now on.

A: Are they paying you to say these things? What’s the commission?

S: Do you know one of the moments of supreme happiness in my life? My father bought me a Sony Walkman with a radio in it when I was a kid. I didn’t want anything else. I had never had anything so special. I had never heard something on headphones before. We had a shared stereo between me and my two brothers. I used to listen to the Walkman at night time in bed in the dark. These headphones remind me of that happiness. I am sorry that my happiness bothers you. You also don’t very much approve of my sadness or anger. Emotion bothers you.

A: I am happy you are happy. It is good to sing the praises of those things full of praise. Enjoy the music. Everyone deserves happiness. After all, what else do we look for in life? Now you have a new soundtrack to life. Everything will be fresh again, all your songs.

achilles and the anger of a broken heart

11.03.2026

A: Why are you so angry?

S: They broke my heart.

A: They are telling you that they did nothing to you.

S: Yet they broke my heart.

A: This world? Work? Love?

S: Why say? Perhaps all, perhaps one.

A: How can you be angry?

S: Achilles was the greatest. His anger was such that he would not fight in the war where his exploits would become legendary, the war that is the destiny of the warrior.

A: He did fight.

S: Have you discovered why he fought though? It was also the anger of the broken heart, when they killed his lover.

A: The moral of this story?

S: The Greek myth makes him a slave for their fight through the anger of a broken heart. This is the journey of a broken heart in Greek culture, in Western culture.

A: You said you are Achilles. Will you not fight for the anger of the broken heart?

S: Not as the slave. Do you know why Achilles was the greatest? He had his mother’s protection. He fell where his mother could not protect him. The Mother protects me. I fight for her honour. They cannot have me as their slave. I am Punjab. I am India. I am The Tiger. I fight for The People as their prayer, The Oppressed. For the others, I will not fight. Their power cannot corrupt the son and the lover. This anger of the broken heart will remain directed at them. The ending of Achilles cannot be the ending of The Tiger.

A: Burning in anger will kill you.

S: Death before dishonour. Death is sweet. And anger? It is strength. It is the strength to carry on, to carry honour. Achilles is angry because he has honour. He is broken hearted because he has honour. This is why he can go against power and all, this is why he is exceptional and alone. This is why he is the greatest.

the uselessness of education and the uses of the education of anger

10.03.2026

S: In his stories about the detective, Doyle could not understand the insane anger of women or the natives.

A: You understand it?

S: I am it. I am rage.

A: Why?

S: When you are angry, you are angry for yourself. I am angry for the community. And that is a lot of anger.

A: How can you be angry for the community?

S: I have five degrees after this year, including a masters and a doctorate. Yet I do not work in a graduate role or use my education in any significant way. I am angry at the uselessness of education. My grandfather had a degree. When he came to this country, he had to work in non graduate roles because of his ethnicity. I am angry at the uselessness of education. My people, the low castes, they would not let them learn. They said education would improve our lot. It hasn’t. I am angry at the uselessness of education.

A: What then is the fruit of this anger? It is also useless.

S: You are wrong. The use of the education of anger is that it makes you stronger. It gives you the strength to go on despite them. The ones that have made education useless. That have made the life of the intellect an ordeal. This anger has unfolded the secrets of this world of ignorance and prejudice. This anger? It is what has created The Tiger.

A: Insane anger.

S: For an insane world.

status

10.03.2026

A: Is honour the same as status?

S: In many ways, yes.

A: But is it the same?

S: I will give a personal example. I have to work for others. That is status. I’m down on the scale. But honour? That is different. Because I have honour.

A: They don’t?

S: Who knows whether they do or not. I don’t concern myself with them. This honour that I have comes from protecting The Mother and improving the world around me, by protecting the planet, Our Earth Mother. By helping so many others.

A: No one gives you this honour except for yourself.

S: It is only my opinion that counts. I am the hero. The hero functions according to a code.

A: Have you lived up to the ideal of the hero?

S: Do you know what the hero is? Who The Tiger lives up to? It is my grandfather. He came to this country from nothing. He struggled against their hate. And despite that, he collected money and built the gurdwara (temple) for our guru, Guru Ravidas. The guru that they can’t accept because he comes from us, the low castes, the Dalits and The Oppressed. He made our community in this place. That is who I live up to. Them? Their hero is Hitler. And the heartless rich, whose skin colour they admire. That is why they have not honour but shame.

A: How does the egoist endure the status given?

S: With scorn for them and not for myself.

the enemy world

09.03.2026

S: This world is an enemy. One whose clutches you cannot escape.

A: You have become an enemy to this world.

S: I was born its enemy. To have a heart is to create a foe to what is.

A: Do you not think that others have hearts?

S: Where is the evidence for it? Because love is something that has to be shown.

A: No one has shown you love? You have a girlfriend.

S: It is only her that shows me love.

A: What do you do with this girlfriend?

S: Explore existence.

A: She sounds more like a philosopher than a girlfriend.

S: I will not tell what we do. Because there is the eye of envy. As well as the eye of ignorance. This world would destroy love. That is what this world is. If one were to describe it, it could be described as love killing.

A: Why do you say this?

S: Have you ever watched the traditional Indian film? Two fall in love. Then the whole world goes against them. Not only rivals in love and villains, but also families. All anyone can think of is to kill love. It is a world that kills love.

A: This is a movie.

S: Not at all. It is my own personal experience.

A: How so?

S: Even the ones you love want you to kill your love. Do you know what torture it is is when you love someone and you cannot have them? They want you to endure this torture. It is no wonder that Nietzsche went mad when he could not have the one that he loved.

A: You escaped madness. By a whisper.

S: And now, I have someone. And I hide her from this cruel world that would take her away from me and the cruel ones that would have all kill their love.