disconnection

14.01.2026

S: You are disconnected from a job. You no longer care if you come in on time. You no longer do extra. You have no interest in what happens. You don’t trust the management. You don’t expect anything out of your job.

A: Sounds bad.

S: You are disconnected from people around you. You don’t talk to them. You don’t take interest in them. Where is it going to go? Nowhere. What do you get out of them? Nothing.

A: You are not an island.

S: What else am I?

A: Despair does not give a good life.

S: Somehow, despite severe demotivation, you have to go on. You have to perform despite no reward and no recognition. Have you been able to do that? Could you keep on writing, singing, dancing, drawing for these philistines and ignoramuses?

A: Burnout?

S: The assessment of reality. They all feed from the talent of a genius. But the genius is sick of them.

A: Think of the one you have that recognises your talent. You said that all you need is one.

S: Yes, they are they and I am I. We are us. There is one connection in a world that fosters disconnection, hate, distrust and prejudice.

A: Snap yourself out of this world.

S: What else do I do? I am the Revolutionary. We are not of this world. We are of a better world, a much better world. A world of freedom, justice and merit.

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the bravery the pride the manhood of tiger

13.01.2026

S: In the film ‘Jaat’, Sunny Deol, my favourite actor, a fellow Punjabi, he says that ‘I am one who knows the value of life, yet still I put my life into danger’. That is the philosophy of the hero.

A: You have quoted this line before.

S: Yesterday, like so many times, I put it into practice. The one that wants to be a hero does not fly from danger. He runs into it.

A: What happened?

S: There was an argument on the train when I boarded it. About six young men involved. As usual, the non-men on the train were not intervening. I was on the phone to the one that is mine. I stopped the phone call and walked over to break it up. I did break it up. One group walked off. One of the young men expended his ire on me.

A: Did you have to do this?

S: I have been raised to be a hero. I come from a Sikh background. We have been raised to be brave and to serve the community. They look to us for help.

A: Now you will boast?

S: I did the work. I was the only man on the train.

A: You are so proud of being a man. It will get you into trouble.

S: It is the coward and the non-man that is scared. Not The Tiger. I am proud to be a man. I am proud to be Punjabi. I am proud to be brave. I am proud to be The Tiger. It is not just my name. It is who I am. I have never been scared of anyone.

A: They call you toxic.

S: The coward has many names. But no heart and no conscience. It is the man that does the work. It is the man that protects the community.

A: Life is not about proving your bravery.

S: Who says? That is exactly what it is. The one that is the strongest, it is his duty to look after the weak. No matter how contemptible many of them are.

relationships

12.01.2025

S: What is your view of relationships?

A: Is there a view? What’s yours?

S: Just because you don’t speak, doesn’t mean you don’t think about things.

A: How do you know people do?

S: I won’t dignify that with a response. You want to know my view?

A: Not particularly.

S: Well, since you’re twisting my arm, here it is. The relationship is absurd.

A: Why do you say that?

S: If you genuinely care about someone and go after them, ask them out, they will not have you. If you show no interest, they are all over you.

A: Evidence?

S: I was at this place where I had to have minimal interaction with people on arrival. I gave the minimum. Then, instead of joining the thing, there was one that would not leave me alone. The more aloof I was, the more they were trying to talk to me.

A: Just that as proof?

S: That is after three years of trying to find someone in London. I was handsome then. I’m handsome now. It is the same man.

A: You had some things in that time.

S: Nothing that coalesced into a relationship.

A: Well you have someone now. Forget about the atrocious past. Strategy in the future? Play hard to get from now on?

S: I’m only myself. I don’t play any games. I don’t use a strategy. I have self respect. If they can’t value me, they’re not worth it anyway.

pride

11.01.2026

S: If I believe that someone has chosen someone over me or does not treat me with respect, attention and care? Then I stop talking to them.

A: Why?

S: I’ve put up with these fake people that are nice to your face and stab you behind your back all my life. I have had my fill of them.

A: Everyone thinks that you are wrong.

S: Only I am the custodian of myself, what is within. This world is a constant devaluation of my kindness, my genius and my care. I am not going to waste what is precious for those who do not deserve it. The Bible says not to cast pearls before swine. I have self respect and righteous pride in me.

A: They think you are brutal.

S: What are they that have no love in their hearts? Do you know something about human beings? They crave belonging and inclusion. Yet, what do they deny? Exactly that. Any sense of friendship or intimacy. It is not me that is cruel. It is their hostility and their aggression. Their lack of manners and humanity.

A: They dislike you with your silence.

S: They never loved me in the first place. It is entirely irrelevant what they think. They are not fit to talk to.

stupidity

11.01.2025

S: The fool does not know their own foolishness. The fool thinks that they are wise. That is the height of their folly. And not only that, but that they presume that they can lead.

A: And where does this foolishness take place?

S: It is everything and everywhere. The fool rules. The fools are ruled. This world is for the stupid, foolish and the moronic. The morons, the cretins and the stupid. How else could they choose this?

A: You are wise?

S: You like to sneer. I could solve many problems in this world with just one blow.

A: And that is what they will deny you.

S: They love their foolishness and the fools that rule them. They will not have the truth.

A: Evidence?

S: Do you know how hard it is for an intelligent human being to find a partner? They would rather have a fool than one that is clever. They try to take us out of the gene pool.

A: Any other evidence?

S: Talk of intelligent things they cannot have. In their sites of supposed education (mindless conformity and racism), they won’t support projects of real intelligence. Education is their lowest priority. They are all fucking stupid bastards.

A: You hate the stupid?

S: Yes.

the fog

10.01.2025

S: Do you know what difference it makes to have someone in your life?

A: What?

S: I came out of the station after meeting them. And there it was, this big fucking fog. You couldn’t see anything. You could barely recognise where you were. You were disorientated.

A: That’s what it’s like to be with someone?

S: I haven’t got to it yet. You’re interrupting. The big fucking fog is what it was like when I was going all over London for three years trying to meet someone. I’m never going to forget how those people treated me.

A: Let’s not talk about that. Come, talk about nicer things.

S: I want to talk about the fog. Deadly cold. An obstruction of vision and the journey. It saps away at you, at your will and your heart. You don’t want to go on. And, you know, it is this fog that we have to live through. Dante wrote of this dark forest in his work. It comes at around our age. When you have nothing and no one to turn to.

A: What is the way out of the fog?

S: Who knows? One day, the fog was gone. I was with someone. I don’t know how and why it happened. There were no games like these immature people play. Finally, someone just accepted me for my own self. Even though there were issues, they forgave the issues for me. Instead of making excuses to say no, they made excuses to say yes. Instead of denying me of any chance, they kept on giving me chances.

A: What do you say to those in the fog?

S: That fog is caused by people that are not worth your time or your feelings. That is what that fog is. It is a dead end. Forget about the fog and the people that caused that fog. Go with someone where there is no fog.

plans

10.01.2025

S: You can’t make things happen by yourself. That’s the reality.

A: Agreed.

S: It’s only the ideology of the west that you can do it all alone. Anything you want, you need at least one other person to give you an opportunity.

A: Where is this going?

S: They won’t. They just won’t give you an opportunity. Instead, they would rather stand in your way and block you.

A: That is people.

S: What it makes me think of is the fake friend. They were jealous of me. They criticised me and my achievements. While pretending that they were my friend. All they want to do is to pull you down. That is their nature. They can’t let talent rise because it would embarrass them.

A: Where will this complaint get you?

S: The biggest lie this culture tells is that it is a meritocracy. That is the heart of their racism and prejudice, the heart of their mediocrity. If I can’t change this bullshit reality of theirs, at least I can point it out. If they don’t like it, tough shit. I have to swallow their bullshit. They can swallow the truth about it.

the lover’s eyes the enemy’s eyes

09.01.2026

S: The lover’s eyes ask what I am.

A: Lovers lie about forever and whatever. Is there any forever any more?

S: Not necessarily. It is a new age.

A: How can such eyes ask and answer?

S: Love is the quest and the solution.

A: A game of the eyes? A language of vision?

S: The lover favours action. The eyes act. They see. The language of the eyes is the philosophy of the love of India.

A: You play the game of the eyes. Are you winning?

S: There is another game of the eyes. The enemy’s eyes. The enemy does not lock eyes. They are a coward. They cannot meet the eyes of the brave. The eyes of The Tiger.

A: They do not need to. They have an army of non-men to do their bidding with their coward’s toys.

S: Now is the time of the Revolution. It is time to take the enemy’s eyes and rid the world of their lecherous and louche gaze. I have looked into the enemy’s eyes and I have seen the ruination of the world.

A: You would give your army the eyes of The Tiger? Tiger would rip and rend everything that there is. What is the difference between you and the enemy?

S: That I fight on the right side, The Mother’s side. And She has decided that Shiva and Kali are to dance. Sin has outweighed goodness, the balance is lost. Those that have been raised as heroes and gods are who those look to that are lost. It is time to prove the belief.

the rule of the narcissists

05.01.2026

S: So, it is happening. That motherfucker Trump is imposing his bullshit on the countries around him.

A: Analysis?

S: The weak follow the clown. The strong follow The Tiger.

A: You think they will stand for his aggression?

S: The oppressor has many friends.

A: And The Tiger?

S: The Tiger stands alone. He has one. The one that cares for him. This world chooses evil and not goodness. He is the right colour, the right sex and the right wealth. And that is enough for these fucking slaves.

A: I will not ask you for the solution. They will not countenance it.

S: If there was one that I could follow to the death, I would be blessed. Instead, I follow the way of The Tiger. I follow my own lead. These, they cannot follow a real man. They follow the narcissist, the arrogant, those bristling with hubris.

A: They do not have your humility.

S: I never talk down to anyone if I boast. I never dismiss, exclude or attack difference. I do not interfere where I am not wanted. I maintain respect. Trump is an obnoxious, preening stack of shit. And yet, they follow this bully to the death. Their culture is entirely degraded. It is a joke because he is a fucking clown. A deadly joke because this clown wants blood.