14.12.2025
A: You are the fighter. What is the worst beating you have taken?
S: The beating from the stone.
A: Meaning?
S: Telling them what I felt about them to be burnt alive.
A: Surely you exaggerate. After all, they did nothing to you.
S: They put a wall of ice around me which pierced my heart with shivers of ice.
A: That is what it is like when love is not returned?
S: You have never felt it? The pain. The nausea. The disappointment. The disbelief. The trauma, the shock, the nightmares…
A: Nightmares?
S: Let us not speak of those.
A: Real pain?
S: Much worse than getting a beating. Fire in the mind. That is what you get from loving the stone.
A: The stone rolls through the world. Everywhere, the stone crushes its lovers. That is the way of the stone.
S: The stone can crush an insect. I am a man, a lover, a warrior. The heart of the Punjabi is brave. However remorseless this life and the stone, we live through it. Love triumphs.
A: But you talk often of the stone…
S: My anger at the stone is irredeemable. That is our final connection. Anger without words or bounds.
diary of a lone man 