06.11.2025
S: Achilles is angry. He will not fight. He will not be included or involved in this machine of war unless he is given the highest honour. He is a warrior from the honour society. Not the degraded present.
A: And you are Achilles.
S: Over twenty years ago they rejected me from Cambridge even though I passed the interview. I am still sore. They did not give me my professor’s role at university after my PhD, book and articles. Can you imagine my wrath? They should be throwing every top position into my lap.
A: Don’t become ego.
S: I am ego and I am rage. I deserve the honour. They have been unjust to me. They are racists.
A. You believe in yourself so much?
S: If someone who is as intelligent and well read as me tells you that he is a genius, it is because he knows his own place in the world of thought. There is no one like me. Because I am Punjab. I am India. I am The Tiger.
A: One day, even Achilles fights.
S: Achilles enters the field for his love. The warrior only fights for honour or love. They do not deserve Achilles. The Greeks do not deserve him. Helen does not deserve him.
A: You were not lying when you said your ego was monstrous.
S: I am the greatest. I believe. And if they will not give me what is mine because of my greatness, why should I kill myself for them? Who the fuck are they? Haters and low lifes. They only recognise greatness to exclude it. Fuck them and theirs.
diary of a lone man 